life

hmm ... things starting to go haywire, got my bisc mark back lower than the avg, i don't really like how that course is marked but oh wellz ....

two more exams to go and i'm out of undergrad for good ... don't know what'll happen next month when i'm done ...

a review of what happened in the past so far ... lets c (in case i become demented)

..::<[the chocolate]>::..
crush when i was a kid, flew to another side of the world, later met, gave chocolate on x'mass, talked on msn
... didn't last very long, distance thing, never really responded back, got married this year of 2010 ...

..::<[the sub]>::..
one day, hear the person's forgot their lunch, commuted all the way from school, skipped tutorial (which i rarely do), bus hopped a couple of times, finally met up at the bus stop, got a smile after giving the sub and h20 ... drew a pic, slided it in a big blue binder, the person probably didn't see it ... oh wells, invited the person to tennis, invited last week for a walk too, went to halloween on invitation of a friend though but that was it ... also getting married this year of 2010 ....

..::<[the egg pie]>::..
hmmm ... didn't really go far compared to the others, had in one time, touched hands like the one in tarzan, went after work to celebrate birthday, delivered food to school, i had a feeling this person was using me to get food, how sad .... well, the person's in medschool now, maybe happy with someone else ...

..::<[the compass]>::..
met at a class by chance, going to a familiar place in the summer, did assign together, and always get lost going to a place, so gave the person a compass,
asked the person twice for a walk, declined, ..... seemed to ignore/avoid too, .... life's harsh ... probably for the best anyways

..::<[the guide]>::..
the person actually agreed to meet after asking twice, went for dinner (waited for 30 min cuz i said i was gonna be late but was actually on time, my bad), gave a pic too, temple, karaoke, had a feeling the person wasn't happy, was it only as a guide?

..::<[the adventurer]>::..
this person seems to be the only one that came closest, the person is more responsive than the rest, but alas, the distance thing kicks in .... tough ... tough

..::<[the end]>::..
and so that concludes these few years of set backs, this thing is meant for some people, not mean for others, perhaps not enough effort was put in, perhaps didn't read the signals correctly, perhaps not really a 'people' person, too sensitive?

but hey, a person can feel something too, it's probably for the best, get out of the hole while it's still shallow before falling into an abyss where escape would be an epic endeavor.
from now on, try to go fwd, only look back so that these lessons are not takn 4granted.


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"Every cloud has a silver lining." http://www.usingenglish.com/reference/idioms/every+cloud+has+a+silver+lining.html

finally took a load off my chest, maybe i'll regret writing this later, maybe not, oh wells oh wells oh wells